Yen’s in the middle of the night

Love views on the impact of life…

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strenght, loving someone deeply gives you courage"
( Lao - tze , Chinese Philoopher )

Yups…love
just a classic word, some characters in one word, but love never be
described by some words, and it has a comprehensive meaning into the
world.
By the poet above, we can see how love has undergone enormous
changes someone. The glory and the pain in love. Throughout this
meaning of love.

Yups..love never be said by the words. So..how
do you know that anyone else in love with you??. We still could get the
answer of that question. We get to know by their acting to us, how
she/he acts to us, how she/he talks with us, and how she/he stares us
when we have standing in front of them. By all of those things, we get
to know that "she/he love me" !!

Love has a significant role for
each person. It could give off the dying into a life, but it also could
bring a dying from a life. Both of those things could be happened to
anyone. No matter who!! But it just be happened with someone in love.

For
example, I’ll type down my experience to enhance your understanding
’bout the role of love on your life, and ’bout some statements I’d
typed down above.

"I ever fall
in love with someone some years ago. When I fell it, there’s a courage
in me to face everything. I’ve been a survive one. I did the best
things b’coz of the one and even he could make me know my real dreamin’
for this life. It gave the impactation for my life"
That’s the role of love in my life…and that’s for love in giving a life…

That’s not always be like that…!! Sometimes love carry us in a dying..!! This story bellow is gonna make you see that…
"in
some times ago, love gave off me…!! It seemingly everything is
wrong…!! It’s just look like in a dark room with a loneliness. I’m
just like a life corpse. My body could stand in this earth, but there’s
just the emptiness in my soul…!! "
That’s love in giving off a life…

Now…have
you found the role of love on your own?? Just find it…!! And you get
to know truely the meaning of love for yaa…!!

Ok..just be gud luck to holding on your love…!!
Love will find yaa…hehehehe…;).

Standing in the crowded on my own

Stole a glance at the right, left and the stars above…

Appeared a question deen inside of this heart…
"where he gone?? When’s he gonna be back..??"
waited the answer and tears drops fall like rain…

Longing someone to carry me in the piece of his heart…

Nobody could get understand in me..

Just confided in the middle of the night..

Make a wish in the Mighty of God

"God…make him be back…his present is my waiting all my life…I wanna feel the warmth of his heart…I wanna be touched by his soft…I wanna hold so tight…I wanna lay down all my life…I wanna be held by his love.."

Some characters in my praying…while believing of miracle come to this line of waiting my lovee…

Kemeriahaan mewarnai dunia…

Namun kesederhanaan lah yang tetap kuinginkan terlahir dari raga yang masih bernyawa..

Aku hanya manusia biasa yang mampu berusaha, selebihnya hanya mereka lah yang bisa menilainya…

Tapi sedikitpun ku tak ingin mereka berkata…
"begitu stylishnya potongan rambutku…, begitu harumnya parfume merk ternamaku itu…, begitu kerennya sepatu export ku itu…"

"tidakkk…" teriakku…!!

"Aku hanya ingin terlihat seperti orang desa saja…, dengan rambut
potongan biasa…, dengan bau  dari badanku sebagai parfumenya…, dan
dengan  beralaskan telapak kakiku yang melangkah di lantai bumi yang
masih ada…"
Ku coba tanamkan itu dalam jiwa…!!

Membran pikiranku terus saja berputar dalam diri…, mencoba memahami dan mengambil secercah arti…
"Mengapa di setiap pintu dunia selalu ada lampu diamond yang menyala, tapi satu pun tak ku lihat sosok penunduk kepala di antaranya…??"
Ku tanyakan itu dalam jiwa, namun ku tak menemukan jawabannya.

Keringat keputus asaan telah mengalir dari dalam kumpulan nafas ini, tapi tak jua ku menemukan sesuatu yang selama ini tersembunyi…

Dan Tuhan menggerakkan tangannya menyentuh hati..
Lalu…aku lah yang akan mulai berdiri di garis start hidup ini..ku kan berlari…dan ku akan lahirkan sang penunduk kepala yang selama ini bersembunyi dari dalam jiwa ini…

What’s d devil?? what’s d angel?? In communication?? What did i try to give explanation??

Yups…devil
and angel in the communication, fighted in our soul when we were in
confussing to face something. Trying to find out a answer of a
question. Maybe it just looks like a mad one, when we had conversation
in ourself, but the trully do a communication in our own, that could
make an impression to us, and in facted it could make us think a positive
side of our confussing.

For example, i’ll writte down my experience to give more understanding for that theme.

One
day, i faced something. I was in thinking ’bout someone, and at the
same time I asked to my self…"does the one remember me too like i
remember him??". At that moment i’d not know "does the one ever
remember me??". I asked it to my self, and in some seconds later, there
were two sides who gave the answer.

One side said.."nup..he never remind you…he has forgoten you…", when i heard that from myself, i was in sadness. But…some seconds later…there were another words from another side…"do you love him with all your heart n your soul??", I said "yeah..", and the side replied.."if you love him with all your heart and soul, don’t you ever hope he will remember you back…!!","so…make your love as pure as posible without the feedback…".

By the story above, I’ll tell to all of yaa..!! When one side said…"nup..he never remind you…he has forgoten you…", that belong to devil in communication. And when "if you love him with all your heart and soul, don’t you ever hope he will remember you back…!!","so…make your love as pure as posible without the feedback…", that’s the angel said.

Making
devil and angel communication in our own, it’s good to practise our
sensitivity in face something…!! And it could make us have a best
thinking for all of those things…!!

Ok..just try to make devil
and angel communication in your own when you face something…!! And
you will find amazing…hehehehe…;).

"aku disini lagi…", ku katakan dalam hatiku…

tapi sesungguhnya aku tak tau untuk apa aku kembali

tapi ada kekuatan yg membawa ku sampai ke sini

sesungguhnya aku tak pernah mengerti…

sedikit lelahku berlari-lari dari semua yg seharusnya aku hadapi dengan

membusungkan diri ini…dan berkata .."inilah aku…ku tak kan pernah lari…"

tapi aku pikir "untuk apa aku harus lari…??"

"bodohhh..", kata itu mengejek diriku sendiri

"aku kembali di sini dan hanya untuk terperangkap dalam suatu kegelapan??"

"buat apaaaa??, hahhh??"

belum ada orang yg datang dan memberikan secercah cayahanya untukku

tiap malam ku selalu berteriak dalam keabadian Tuhan…

"Tuhan…kapannnnnnn cahaya itu akan datang….??"

bodohhhnya aku, mengapa aku harus berteriakkk…

"Tuhan tidak dungu sepertimu, bodohhh..", malaikat jiwaku berkata…

"Dia tau kapan waktunya Dia akan memberikan cahaya untuk mu…"

"jangan kau membodohi dirimu sendiri dengan berteriak2 dalam Kekuasaan Nya…"